Blessed are they that keep his testimonies, and that seek him with the whole heart.
Psalm 119:2
What woman would be happy to have half of her boyfriend or husband’s heart? None that I know of, and certainly not this one! Let me give you an example. When my husband and I were dating, we had a period of time where he felt “led of the Lord” to break up with me. Unbelievable, huh? Just kidding. During that time, he came to me and tried to smooth things over – not make up, but make me feel better about the fact that he was dating someone else. My heart was broken! He said, “There will always be a place for you in my heart.” As hard as it was for me, I handed over at that moment all the little things he’d given to proclaim his love for me – his ring, a picture, etc.
Lifting a small package containing the items I said,
“Here are your things back.”
Oh, no, you keep them. Like I said, there will always be a place for you in my heart” came his smooth reply.
“No. It’s all or nothing. Here.” I answered, thrusting the items toward him. I meant it, though it crushed me to be shutting the door on this man I knew I still really loved.
Why didn’t I want half of his heart? Because it meant that:
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someone else had the other half!
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I could never depend on his devotion
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there was no commitment
- there were no certainties
You know the end of the story; the Lord did bring him back into my life a little while later and he declared to me that I had all of his heart. Happily ever after, here we come!
When I read Psalm 119:1-8 yesterday, the statement that jumped out at me was that joy comes to those that seek the Lord with the whole heart. Half of a heart isn’t enough for me, and it surely isn’t enough for my Lord. He wants it all. Why is half my heart not good enough? Because half-heartedness means:
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someone or something else has the other half – a hobby, a habit, an object, a person
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the Lord could never depend on me – Will I be available for Him to use?
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there is no commitment – My commitment depends on my feelings
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there are no certainties that I’ll do what he says – Again, I obey if I feel like it
How would my devotions look if I was whole-hearted?
How much more Scripture would I memorize if He had all my heart?
How much more often would I witness if He has my whole heart?
How much more prepared would I be for Sunday school if I went after my lesson with all my heart?
Does it look like YOU and what you’re doing because YOU are seeking the Lord with all your heart?
Half a heart just isn’t enough.
With love,
RefreshHer 
Thank you, {{{Denise}}}, for the reiteration.
And, yes, I remember~
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