Reflecting back on the retreat I was privileged to be a part of this weekend makes me shake my head in amazement once again at my great God. That He would allow me to share His Word with ladies and teach them from the overflow of what He’s taught me, is absolutely amazing! It is a joy beyond compare!
It’s also the hardest thing I ever do. There is such an overwhelming understanding of the responsibility to handle God’s Word correctly and lead ladies to Truth, and to do it in a way that God alone gets the glory.
If you could hear me before I go to speak, you might wonder why in the world God would send me! Seriously! I go through the agony of:doubting that what I’ve spent many hours preparing is what I should be doing. I gasp and wonder what in the world I was thinking when I was sure this is what God wanted me to share! My husband and close friends will hear me say,
I’m not going!
It’s then that they know they need to pray much for my weakness. It’s also at that point that I fall on my knees before Him once again and give Him everything – myself, my words, my outline, my heart, myself. It’s a cycle that happens every. single. time. But it’s necessary, you see, because it empties me of myself and makes me realize that I indeed do NOT have what it will take to go speak and help anyone. I CANNOT make anything happen in myself. I am totally nothing without God’s empowering.
My words are empty. My strength is weak. My plans will fail.
- is strong when I am weak.
- is almighty.
- is able to do exceeding abundantly .
- is my all in all.
I sincerely believe that the Lord allows me to speak so that I will continually be drawn to Him in utter dependence. I’m so thankful for that! I don’t want what I can do because I’ve seen what He can do!!
What is it in your life right now that is making you realize that you are so very unable to do what is before you? God gives each of us at least one thing to cause our eyes to look upward, pleading for His possible power when the situation seems impossible to us!
Lift your hands toward heaven and remember that He is your All in All! He can do the impossible in and through you when you let go and trust solely in Him.
Do you have an impossible situation? Will you allow Christ to be your All in All this moment? He is enough. Take it from someone who knows because she DID go, and God did all the work. Praise His name!