Christian Life · God's character · joy · trust

I’m Not Going!

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Reflecting back on the retreat I was privileged to be a part of this weekend makes me shake my head in amazement once again at my great God.  That He would allow me to share His Word with ladies and teach them from the overflow of what He’s taught me, is absolutely amazing!  It is a  joy beyond compare!

It’s also the hardest thing I ever do.  There is such an overwhelming understanding of the responsibility to handle God’s Word correctly and lead ladies to Truth, and to do it in a way that God alone gets the glory.

If you could hear me before I go to speak, you might wonder why in the world God would send me!  Seriously!  I go through the agony of:doubting that what I’ve spent many hours preparing is what I should be doing.  I gasp and wonder what in the world I was thinking when I was sure this is what God wanted me to share!  My husband and close friends will hear me say,

I’m not going!

It’s then that they know they need to pray much for my weakness.  It’s also at that point that I fall on my knees before Him once again and give Him everything – myself, my words, my outline, my heart, myself.  It’s  a cycle that happens every. single. time.  But it’s necessary, you see, because it empties me of myself and makes me realize that I indeed do NOT have what it will take to go speak and help anyone.  I CANNOT make anything happen in myself.  I am totally nothing without God’s empowering.
My words are empty. My strength is weak.  My plans will fail.

But God…

  • is strong when I am weak.
  • is almighty.
  • is able to do exceeding abundantly .
  • is my all in all.

I sincerely believe that the Lord allows me to speak so that I will continually be drawn to Him in utter dependence.  I’m so thankful for that!  I don’t want what I can do because I’ve seen what He can do!!

What is it in your life right now that is making you realize that you are so very unable to do what is before you?  God gives each of us at least one thing to cause our eyes to look upward, pleading for His possible power when the situation seems impossible to us!

Lift your hands toward heaven and remember that He is your All in All!  He can do the impossible in and through you when you let go and trust solely in Him.

Do you have an impossible situation?  Will you allow Christ to be your All in All this moment?  He is enough. Take it from someone who knows because she DID go, and God did all the work.  Praise His name!

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Christian Life · obedience · Parenting · Prayer · trust

What To Do When You Don’t Know What To Do

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While visiting my parents in Kentucky over Thanksgiving, we took a drive to some old home sites and places I grew up.  One drive took us to a small town where I had originally thought I’d go to college.  My husband pulled the car into the entrance gate and my mind played back the scene as I looked through the car windows and recalled the last time I was there…

My plans were made, and in my heart, my future was set.  As a senior in high school, I thought I was sure what God wanted for me.  I would attend a local college, literally up the road.

I would live at home.

I would become a nurse and serve the Lord with that ministry.

It was settled.

Then one Friday night I drove through the entrance of the college pictured above for a weekend visit of the campus. This was a time for perspective students to visit and get an idea of what college life was like on this campus.  It was labeled as a Christian school.  I was excited about that, because Christ is my Savior, and I desired to live my life and be in places that honored Him.  I had visited a large Christian university in another state earlier that year, just for a fun weekend, and was so impressed with the spiritual temperature of the campus and in the lives of the students.

However, what I had anticipated seeing and hearing on this weekend was not at all what I saw or heard.  Though this was supposed to be a Christian school, that was definitely not the testimony I witnessed.  I was heartbroken.  At the end of my visit, I got in my car, pulled away from the school, and cried the 15 minute ride home.

I couldn’t have been more sure that God was saying a firm, “No” to all my plans.

At the time I remember how devastated I was.  I wasn’t sure what I would do now.  I had literally had the rug pulled out from under my feet.

I cried and I prayed.

I also talked with my parents, whom I knew were much wiser, and would give me godly counsel.  I suggested the Christian college that I had visited earlier in the year, but they had valid concerns and they lovingly said, “No.”

When you’re an 18 girl who is a child of God, and you live at home, have no job, or no idea about where to get an education, you quickly enroll in the school of prayer.  As I submitted to my parents counsel, and prayed for God’s direction, He provided me with a job at the Coca Cola Bottling Company, working in the accounting department.  That was totally of the Lord, seeing I had NO experience in this field, and didn’t even do super well in my math classes!

I went to work there, and enjoyed my life as a young single adult, all the while praying that if God would allow, He would open the door for me to attend the Christian college eight hours from my home.  In the middle of the year, my mom asked if I was still desiring to attend school there.  I answered that I was.  She gave me their blessing!  I finished out the summer working at Coca Cola and prepared to leave in the fall.

That move to the large Christian university in September changed the direction of my life forever and in wonderful ways.

God’s timing was perfect.

His provision was complete.

His grace was sufficient.

His plan was perfect because He is God.

I learned some really important lessons during those months of waiting and wondering that have served me well as an adult.  In my mind’s eye, when I visit that driveway of the other school, I don’t just remember God shutting that door, I remember the lessons I learned about trusting Him, the sweetness of prayer, and of Him opening the next door – in His time and in His perfect way.

What are you waiting for today?  God’s will to be revealed?  A test result?  A mate?  A provision?  An answer?  Don’t give up and do your own thing.  You can trust God with every detail that He will arrange in His sovereign ways.  Wait and trust.  You’ll be glad you did.

So thankful,

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God's character · trust

What I’m Doing On Election Day

Today is an important day in our country, but I will not fear.   God is on the Throne and everything is good in my Father’s House!

I did choose to vote!  It’s my right, privilege and responsibility as a citizen of this land.

I choose not to watch and listen to the reports until it’s all said and done.

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I won’t be anxious.

I will not fuss.

I will pray and trust our God who is

GREATER

STRONGER

BETTER

than any person.

I will rest in Him.

At the end of this day, no matter the outcome, we can say:

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Resting in a sovereign God,

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Child-like Faith

The blessings of teaching children in Sunday school are abundant.  I get lots of hilarious lines to add to my list of “
Sweet Sayings,” I have the opportunity to read passages of Scripture over and over in preparation for teaching it to young ones, and.I am humbled at their  faith.

Last Sunday I reminded the children, as I do each week, about the missionary for whom we are collecting offering.  We have chosen to support The Harrell’s, serving in Peru.  I’ve shown the children  pictures of their family, of the country of Peru, and of the ministry they are endeavoring to begin in their second term – that of an orphanage.  Each week as the children drop their coins into the jar, the sensor on it calculates each coin that is added and gives the total on the top of the jar.  The children get excited each week as they see the total increasing.  I told the children on Sunday that we had almost $30, and when it reaches $50 we would send it to the Herrell’s.  One little boy asked, “Why don’t we just wait until the jar gets full?”  “Well,” I answered, “the Herrell’s need this money now.”  “Oh” came his thoughtful reply. 

A few minutes later I was taking their prayer requests and this same little boy said, “I want to pray that God will give me money for the offering this week so we can send that offering to the Herrell’s even sooner!”  My heart was so touched by his longing, and my heart was rebuked at his great faith.  Wow! 

My prayers this week have been, not just for the Herrell’s, but also for this full-of-faith 5 year-old.  I’m asking God to supply abundantly so He can give generously in our Sunday school offering next Sunday.  Oh, may that $50 mark jump up there in the next week!  God can do it…this little child reminded me of that truth!

What do you need to trust God to do, that to a child would seem so small?  Is your faith great as you trust our Great God?  Maybe we alll need to sing that little chorus:

He is able,
He is able,
I know He is able.
I know my Lord is able to carry me through!
Trusting in the God Who is able,